..I don't want to disappoint my parents?
..I don't want to let down my peers?
..I feel obligated to everyone who has invested so much into me?
Or possibly, it's that..
..I'm aware of my potential and scared of not living up to it?
..I'm afraid to Fall?
I'm afraid to Fail!
No matter the route of reason, it has prevented me from ever trying. It has prevented me from taking anything seriously and giving it my all. I' have yet to dive into anything head first, for Fear of hitting the bottom before ever having the opportunity to open my eyes.
It's funny because I'm quick to inspire others and push them to accomplish their goals. I'll assist in anyway I can to see them fulfill their dreams, but I never assist or inspire myself. I suppose witnessing others successfully accomplish their goals is in a way, satisfying. But that is no longer enough.
I recently read a tweet that said, "Millions of people can believe in you, and yet none of it matters if you don't believe in yourself." That's some real shit, considering that there is always someone in my corner telling me that "they believe in me." And although that is very reassuring, it hasn't changed much of anything.
So maybe its not the Fear.
Maybe its Frustration. Frustration because I don't know really what I want, or even so how to get there.
People are always saying things like,
"You never know until you try"
"The only failure in life, is the failure to try."
(or my favorite) "Try and fail, but don't fail to try" - Stephen Kaggwa
..Cool Quotes -_-
But now that I'm nearing the end of this post, I'm starting to think something else.
Fuck Fear
Fuck Frustration
Fuck Failing
I've always known what I need to do ..
I'm just going to DO IT!
"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure." -Marianne Williamson
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